IF ONLY.....

I wish I had the words to tell u how I feel
How life wud have been different if I had u near
Just a soothing touch of yours could heal
N wipe off my brimming tear

If I could scribble my feelings to let u know
How much on earth you mattered to me
If only you could feel the flow
Of love dat filled me with glee

If only you could see the tears that I hid
By wearing a fake smile
U sure would have loved me kid
By goin an extra mile

If only u cud sense my heart’s joy
When u held me close
And see me cuddle lyk a child
Into ur arms wid a curly pose

If only you could see the love that I showered upon
Those days when u were sad and alone
U wudnt hav left me and moved on
Knowing that I had just loneliness to own

If only u didnt promise dat u’ll be there
Today tomorrow and everyday
I wud have lived somehow believing dat life was fair
Without cursing that my fate did me betray

Now that u r gone
I am still learning how to survive
Far from the world I still mourn
Reclusive and alone

Strong I was with a brave heart
And I won’t let u break me
I’ll have a fresh start
And I’ll start living happily

One day u’ll be out of my life
And I’ll be myself again
I’ll stop hurting myself with a knife
And back me I will regain.

The I in ME

I stood by the sea watching the sun set

a day had ended for a new dawn to beget

So many things had changed some old some new

But hardly did I notice all but few

I wish I had the leisure to see them all

A long night by the beach to myself enthrall

It started raining n a lovely smell rose

And to drench myself in it I chose

Drops of rain touched me through

Within myself me I did pursue

I searched me for I missed myself a lot

Long lost and had long forgot

Sitting in a corner with her head bent low

I saw a girl standing up slow

How come u took so long and how could u forget

I waited for u from dawn till sunset

I am sorry I said for I did

Something which u had always forbid

I should have never left u alone

In this world inhuman and unknown

But im glad I found u at last

And all the bad things now are buried in the past

For I have learnt to love you more

And you are the one to heal my wounds sore

The rain had stopped leaving me soaked

My mind seemed fresh and thoughts unblocked

Eyes wide shut I smiled with glee

Finally I had found the lost I in ME

Sorry Again...

Written by one of my frnz...

All I wanted is to say I like you and Refrain,
But I still can’t forget you,
And I am sorry again.

Desired to hate what I had loved,
And forget what together we sang,
Desired colors to disappear from life,
And hide out my heart,
But every blink off my eyes tears sprang.

All I wanted is to repress the pain,
But I still can’t forget you,
And I am sorry again.

Desired you would have never met,
And never our ways had a cross,
Desired not to be appreciated,
And be loved so much,
But every second past I felt your loss.

All I wanted is these blues to drain,
But I still can’t forget you,
And I am sorry again.

Desired not to worship your beauty,
And ignore your innocence,
Desired Sun not to raise, Moon to fade,
And sweet Winds to stop,
But every breeze around brought me your fragrance.

All I wanted is to say I love you and Refrain,
But I still can’t forget you,
And I am sorry again.

The Last Goodbye

Never had I thought in my wildest dreams all this will end so soon
It seems like yesterday when your love took me over the moon
Had I known time was so short
Would have done everything to leave no malice thought

I made mistakes n fought with you
Always finding reasons new
Little did I know that someday
These reasons will all be cast away

I don’t know if I loved u enough
Measuring it would b really tuff
But one thing I sure believe
All of it was never to deceive

May be you never cared enough to see
What lay deep within me
For not even once did I complain
Of your behavior inane

All that you gave me were some happy memories
Mixed with some hue and innumerable cries
Content I am for all that I had
As I learnt ultimately in love never to be sad

Love is never about asking for material pleasures
But finding happiness in all small treasures
It’s all about forgetting yourself for the joy of the other
For love itself is enough to smother

It’s hard to show the depth of love in my heart’s core
Just like the count of waves that lash the shore
Enormous and undefined
Within boundaries love can never be confined

I now realize the time has come to finally say goodbye
And in front of my eyes all the memories fly by
Just as we met someday
Today we will part way

It’s been long since I kept u close
And never for a second let my heart dispose
But now I’ll have to let you go for reasons good
And cherish you just like the memories of childhood

Life goes by and I’ll learn to live
Forget and u will forever forgive
But someday when I’ll grow old
Left with none to rely and no hand to hold
I surely will remember the days passed by
And will weep for i was forced to say goodbye

FOREVER YOURS...FOREVER MINE

I wake up every mornin thinkin of u
the feel of last nite still overdue
It seems lyk a dream too hard to break
I wish i had never been awake

Its been so long since i fell in love
my heart beating fast jst lyk a flyn dove
It still feels fresh it still feels new
Jst as the mornin glory bathed in dew

No words I find to express what I feel
how I long for a touch of urs to heal
Time will go on and days will end
forcing us to part with no hope to mend

In my dream I wish we live together
to care and to love one another
I pray to God n for this only thing I pine
I be forever yours n u be forever mine....

AS LONG AS......

LUV 2 ME WAS VERY RARE UNTIL THE DAY U SHOWED SUM CARE
LYF SEEMED FULL AND VERY FAIR
FREE OF MISERIES AND DESPAIR
MY HEART SANG THE SONG OF LUV ALOUD
SEEING THE MOUNTAIN TOP DAT KISSED THE CLOUD

THE RAIN OF LUV DRENCHED MY SOUL
WEN ON THAT LOVELY NITE U KISSED MY SHOULDER MOLE
I FLEW LYK A BIRD WITH MY WINGS SPREAD WIDE
BREAKING ALL RULES BOUND TO ABIDE
LUV FILLED THE AIR FORCING ME 2 DARE
TO TELL U THE THINGS DAT I BEAR

I FELL IN LUV WITH U WEN I SAW U STARE
DAT NITE FILLED WID GLARE
UR EYES LOOKED AWSTRUCK AND UR HEART POUNDING
UNAWARE OF UR SURROUNDING
I SAW U GIVIN A GLANCE AGAIN
TOO SHY 2 TALK MAY B DREADING SUM PAIN

THE DAYS HAVE PASSED BUT THE MEMORIES REMAIN
FOR ME 2 CHERISH AND SMILE INSANE
I MISS THOSE MOMENTS DAT GIFTED ME U
AS LONG AS I LIVE I LOVE U...

I FORGIVE U...

I lived a simpl lyf b4 u came
Jst lyk a fotograph in a frame
A happy time came my way
Filled with an all smiles’ day
I aspired high & dreamt too much
Never hoping dat u’ll leave me in a lurch


I remember the first chat we had
And the feel of little butterflies in me bombard
I wish I knew that very day
That all this will fade away
The tears in my eyes the day that swell
Still deep down somewhere they dwell


And I knew that to forget this all
It wud require another windfall
I tried to tread the path of happiness
And the only way to do so was forgiveness
So today I out my heart pour
All the feelings that went sour

I forgiv u for coming into my life
And stabbing my love with the sharpest knife
I forgiv u for never loving me much
And filling my life with a thorny flower bunch
I forgiv u for all the talks we had
And all the things that went bad
I forgiv u for always being late
And the umpteen times u made me wait
I forgiv u for forgetting me always
Throughout the April and the Mays’

I forgiv u for making me love u
Though u did not deserve to
I forgiv u for all the promises u made
For they with time did fade
I forgiv u for u did make my life bloom
Before it ended in a pal of gloom
I forgiv u for all my tears
As they made me strong to face my fears
I forgiv u for all the pain u caused
And the love in my life forever paused


I forgiv u for being a voice over the phone
And for leaving me lovelorn
I forgiv u for making my life a hell
And coaxing me in it to dwell
I forgiv u for being a part of my memory
That for me is still so painful and gory
I forgiv u for all ur mighty sins
That poke me like a thousand pins
I forgiv u for loving my outer beauty
And for thinking of me as an unending duty
I forgiv u for making umpteen pieces of my heart
And ripping my belief apart
I forgiv u for stealing away my life’s freshness
And replacing it with loneliness
For all the mistakes unaccountable on ur part
Forever to u forgiveness I impart