Dont want u BACK

Life was tedious as a twice told tale

Filled with never ending miseries and reasons to fail

The world seemed empty needless to say

And I walked alone the paths that came my way

A new beginning was all that I wanted

And somehow I felt that my wish will be granted

His presence in my life filled me with hope

And taught me how with difficulties to cope

His thought always brought a smile on my face

Nudging me on to live life with grace

Love had almost filled my heart

And this time I prayed, it would never depart

Hours passed by and days grew

But still everything felt so new

Slowly life began to flitch

And that was where came the hitch

His love for me started to fade

And the sunny bright mornings filled with shade

It was destined to happen again

And my life filled with pain

Love in my life can never happen

Causing pain that will always deepen

Had he tried to win me back

There would have been everything that today, I lack!

But it is too late to say

And I have moved far away

Loneliness in me still resides

Caressing the pain seated besides

His love was fake and feelings untrue

I learned to accept as I grew

If I meet him someday on my way

What will I to him say??

Thank you coz you taught me how to live with pain

And that’s why I ‘don’t want you back again’…

PAIN......

The day had dawned filled up wid light

but deep inside me it was still night

Rays of the sun painted a shade

but the colours of my life did already fade

I'd luv u my whole life he once said

and I never realised that I was being blessed

My only wish was being granted

had I understood it then now I repented

I broke his heart and made him weep

had the luv inside me gone asleep?

He sure did love me I knew one day

but time by then had far flown away

He left me alone in this gory world

not a single hand for me to hold

Please give him back I cried

but this wish of mine was forever denied

The sun had set to rise again

leaving me filled with pain...

NOW THAT I KNOW......

It was a crazy nite that took it all
I wish in my life i nevr had this nitefall
the distance between us seemed to grow
and before i realised he drifted wid the flow
What went wrong I wondered though
the love in my heart would never go


I stood at a distance watchn him leave
and my heart sank more with a heavy heave
Moments of love Nd moments of joy dat we shared
was all that I for lifelong beared


Why me? I asked the Lord
is this why we struck a chord?
Love is blind all said so
and sure it is now that I know.....

Ek baar kaha to hota.....

Dil ki gehraayiyon se chaha tha tumhe
Iss gehraayi ko naapna seekha to hota
Jhaankh ke dekhna gavaara na sahi
Ek pathar to fekh kar dekha hota...

Shorogul me jo jazbaat samajh na paaye tum
Khamoshi me kabhi unke baare me socha to hota
Lafz sab kuch bayaan nahi karte
Kabhi ankahi ko bhi samjha to hota...

Saqt dil bankar jab baithe the hum
Tab aankho me umadte sailaab ko dekha to hota
Mohabbat kitni hai tumse ye humne na sahi
Tumne bas ek baar kaha to hota...

Wat a way....!!!!!!!

Evr seen a caged bird??? Oh Lord!!!How it longs 2 b free!!!! It can’t fly, can’t talk 2 the clouds, can’t feel the clouds, can’t evn build its own nest….Wat lyf man!!!! This was exactly wat v wer like wen the British ruled us. We left no stone unturned to achieve our freedom. Though India was completely bankrupt when it got freedom still the ppl were more than happy to be free. But we had to pay a heavy price for our freedom in the form of many lives but still we thought that their martyrdom wont go waste and people will continue to tread the path that they had shown for times immemorial.

26th January ..the Indian Republic Day..Celebrated with much fervor & fanfare throughout the country…. Did I say celebrated????? Yup….celebrated by the Gen-X with real fun…. Parties, houseful multiplexes, overflowing and overcrowded shopping malls, bustling food joints & to add the Republic touch..every soul dressed in White. Man!!What a way of celebrating!!!!
I found myslf out on the streets that day…surprisingly!!! Coz I rarely go out on holidays..( My way of celebrating R-Day by sitting at home & relaxing..) On one of the busy traffic signals I saw a scene I had never seen b4….

A group of senior citizens were seated near the roadside eholding banners with eminent freedom fighter’s images. The day was hot and the sun scorching…but all this seldom affected this group……their faces showed no signs of tiredness….except the wrinkles that gave an insight into their ages..

Though waiting for the signal to turn green I couldn’t stop myself from gazing at them for a long time to understand what actually the matter was. As I stood their retrospecting I overheard some people standing next to me talking about this group of citizens. The group of some senior citizens who had taken part in spreading social awareness since the time we got our freedom … this group hold similar kind of silent protests and rallies every year on national holidays…and today they werw protesting against the 26/11 terror attacks.

Wat a way to live life!!! I thought. The youth (including me) are least interested to think of anything else except ourselves an d these senior citizens even in the last few year sof their life are determined to do something worthy…..
The signal turned green & I zoomed my way past them just with a look on my face dat said HATS OFF TO THE SPIRIT MAN!!!!!!
Can we be ever like them?????

I DONT WANNA FALL IN LUV......

Y do ppl fall in luv??????? Not once.....umpteen no.of times!!!!!
God!!!!!!! Does luv happen jst like dat???? How can u luv a person just in a short duration???? Evrythn in this world takes time 2cum into existence...even relationships....Hw can one say dat he luvs sum1 n is ready 2 4get all the pains he/she has undergone coz of that person???

Man!!!!! Frndships r put 2 stake n strong bonds r broken by dis feeln called luv?????Parents who brought u in2 this world get secondary status n ur so called luv bcums ur priority????

Its not dat im against luv.......Till yesterday even i wantd 2 fall in luv but 2de watevr has happnd has made me realise dat Luv can break even the strongest of bonds......n if this happens 2 every1....Plz God NEVR make me fall in luv.......:(

MY LAST CELESTIAL...........

My college’s annual gathering called “CELESTIAL” came 2 an end 2de. Suddenly I am havn mixed feelins……a sense of déjà vu rather….. i am reminded of the day wen I was a fresher & had 2 undergo many rounds of ‘INTRO” an alibi 4 wat many of us knw as ragging. Those were the golden days of my life…..dat will always remain close 2 my heart…… Those wer the days wen I was forced 2 giv my full biodata 2 all the seniors (espcly guys). The days wen I was chosen 4 the fresher contest & my popularity grew day by day. Aaah! Those wer my days!!!!!!!!
My 1st gathering, CELESTIAL’06 & the FRESHER’06 CONTEST r 2 major events of my engg career dat made me a popular name in my college….. My goodness gracious! For the 1st time in my lyf I danced in front of a crowd of sum 500-600 literally mad people who left no stone unturned in embarrassing us poor freshers, b it by their loud hooting or by their nasty comments. Though it was my first stint wid public dancing I still njoyed the whole affair thoroughly…& bcoz I was a popular face the seniors 2 greetd me wid their loud cheers, constant whistling and by chanting my name in a particular fashion….. (I still remember how I blushed on stage wen sum 1 said “I luv u Sheeba” 4m the crowd!!!!!!!!!!)
After dat day my performances in the CELESTIAL evry yr was phenomenal. Singing, drama, fashion shows, compering u name it n I did it (xcept 4 dancing coz I still seriously bliv dat I hav 2 left feet)
And 2de was the last CELESTIAL of my lyf…..CELESTIAL’09 & hey der’s a twist 2... This time I was one among the crowd...And bliv me its gr8 fun 2 b an audience 2……. God!!! The amount of hooting & comments dat I n my gang passed made evn the guys turn their attention 2wards us!!!!!
I dint care wat othrs wud thnk abt me. I jst did wat I do evrytym. If my heart says do it, I jst go 4 it.. I along wid my gang had a ball…….we sang, passed loud n nasty comments, clickd grp fotographs & ya danced 2 till v wer completely draind out……..The DJ was awsum man!!!!!!!!
CELESTIAL’09 ROCKED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!